I was just on Periscope listening to a young man named David Gibson. He calls his followers #dreamcatchers, he delivers inspirational scopes daily. Today was the first day I listened to him and listen to me…he said so many things that brought me to tears, but the one that rang loud and true for me was HOPE. He said HOPE = hold on pain ends and I instantly thought of my yarn and how I constantly hold on tight until the bad things past. Pain does end and I will keep knitting until it does.
He talked about self esteem. Man I know you all are going to say the same thing…”GG you are…” fill in the blank with whatever YOU think about me, but believe me when I say I don’t see what you all see. I am still learning to love me, to know that I am good enough, to know that I am worthy. I am being transparent as I type this, but I truly blush when you all say I am beautiful. My goal is to look in the mirror and say that and believe it!
He talked about fear. My GOD, FEAR has it’s hands firmly around my heart. Fear stopped me from starting a blog. I mean who would want to listen to me. Fear stopped me from starting an Etsy shop, I don’t knit well enough for someone to purchase it. I still haven’t done my own website, because FEAR!
I will end this here…I used the picture above because, I never thought I could make something like that…..
Hold On Pain Ends ~David Gibson
~GG
Beautiful! All of it..ALL of you…simply beautiful. Accepting myself precisely how I am at any given moment is my greatest challenge…and my greatest reward. oxoxox You are precious to me.
PS…that shawl is exquisite. I have moved on from a ‘scarf thing’ to a shawl thing…and I am so grateful.
Yay!! Progress! Thanks for reading! 😘
Progress indeed!!
Beautiful
Love you mean it!
Thank you for this post. Your words mirror my own feelings of self. Fear has stopped me from doing many things also, I have to work hard everyday to overcome the feelings of self worth and doubt. I too wonder if I am “good enough.” After all who wants to listen to a middled aged woman ramble on? I love your site, your knitting, and I am happy that I have “met” you through the fiber arts. Knit on, Miss GG, knit on. Sending hugs and prayers and wanted to let you know that I hear you and I listen. You are beautiful, important and very worthy.
Hugs!!! Thank you for reading and commenting! And YOU keep pushing!
You are SO not alone in those fears and apprehensions. I could have written this post, seriously. *hugs* baby. You are just as you’re supposed to be. You are doing FINE.
Hugs!! Thanks for reading!
And you are beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside. Believe it, we all can see it!
(I hit “Post” prematurely in last message)
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I feel for you, Gaye. So many of us are made to feel ugly and worthless and not quite human beings. And it gets better. I’m sure you’ve berated yourself mercilessly when you start believing you can….(fill in the blank.) It’s a vicious cycle, but because you’ve talked about it openly, you’re on your way. You’ve beated your fear, if just for once, to talk about it.
Hugs and kisses
GAYE! You must have been reading my mind because fear has been holding me back from doing more with my business and reaching out to people with my writing and that ends as of today. Like you I think, who would want to listen to me talk about my experiences with addiction but you know what, there are so many families out there who have gone through or are going through what I’ve been through. They are happy to have someone speak out about their experiences, thoughts, fears, guilt… and connections have been made.
I’ve told you before and I will continue to say that you are an inspiration for me because you have a joy and a passion for what you do and it shows! You may feel the fear, but you do it any way and I swear if I didn’t know you or you didn’t talk about it, no one would ever know because you let that fear motivate you, not hold you back.
This has been something I have been feeling in my heart for a little while now and I’ve prayed on it and I think this post, coming from a dear friend, is the final push I needed to just feel the fear and do it any way 🙂 You don’t know how much your posts mean to people and how much they help, whether you’re talking about knitting or anything else. Hold on, pain ends…love it! I’m on periscope so I will have to check this guy out and get over the fear of doing my first scope 🙂 Thank you for sharing Gaye, love you!
Dang it Nae! You got me crying like a baby! Yes we MUST push past out fears! You do it there is an audience and it will grow just keep doing it!
Just speaking the truth you big softie 😉 We WILL do this!!!